Sadly I must confess: I have never known what it feels like to be comfortable in my own skin. No, no I edit that: I dont even know what my own skin feels like!

All my life I’ve found myself searching for the perfect version of myself meant to walk this earth. That black girl with joy who emanates radiance, royalty, & abundance! She lights up every room she enters, captivates everyone’s attention, & naturally commands respect! She is everything I always searched & longed for. A desire to be the perfect vision of black girl magic! Who the fuck could stop me?!

I wanted so badly to feel like I could just be myself, but I’ve never even known who the fuck I was meant to be! Walking constantly in the shadows of powerful women who I’ve admired, respected, & wished I could be just like.

I always felt out of place, weird, quirky, & just not- me! I spent years searching for the perfect version of myself learning to quiet my voice, bite my tongue, & hide my weirdness that I did not realize made me so unique. I’ve hidden my true self from most of the world for most of my life & now I’m wondering what the fuck is wrong with me?!

I am so wonderfully & divinely created, you could never replicate me. All those years of hiding behind my makeup and material possessions, forgetting that the core of me is what makes me stand out. That my big heart will be perfect for the right people. That If I use my voice, stop hiding in the shadows, & live TRULY I will be everything I’ve wished and hoped I’d be because I’ve been her all along. I’ve been hiding in plain sight from a world full of people that have been willing to see me, accept me, embrace me and all my weirdness, my quirks, my jokes, my smile, my laugh, my pain, my tears….the FULL essence of me!

I am amazing and I no longer desire to be anyone but me! I no longer require approval, half ass love, dead energy, or men who will willingly share my bed before they even try to understand my heart & mind. I require nothing but growth, peace, & abundance! I require nothing but to live in my own skin and to love it there!